The itch to write

 I think I have a small crush on her. Wait no. I definitely have a crush on her. It started as a small one and it's not that small anymore. I cannot make my heart stop beating those thunder beats though my mind is trying its best to stop this nonsense. Sometimes I secretly wish she stares at me when I look away. I feel like I become speechless when I'm near her.  I have a million  things to tell her but i become breathless at her sight. It's an amazing feeling.  It is euphoric. It's addictive. The best part is I haven't told her about it so I don't need to worry about how she will react. I don't want to scare her away. So I guess I'll never tell her because I can't handle rejection. Perhaps she might not be the same if i tell her this.  But wait ! What if...just what if she has a crush on me as well?  I wish I could read her mind.  I think about her everyday.  I try to hide my feelings.  I try not to stare. I sea...

Photo courtesy : Harvey Schiller Chateauglenunga  3.10.2 015      After going through my latest reports even my doctor had  admitted defeat.  He didn't want to scare me with the news ,so he sat next to me and patiently explained the situation . No more chemotherapy could save me. My days were numbered. I felt a sense of liberation within myself.  This meant  I could spend my last days at home.      As I stepped out of the hospital, I looked back at the building where I had spent the past six months in pain. I saw my nurse looking back at me sympathetically . I wish I could tell her that I'm genuinely happy to go home. I  was relieved that I wouldn't be in pain anymore. Goodbye to nausea, mouth ulcers and  an aching body. 5.10.2015 Today my husband had covered the huge mirror in our bedroom with a collection of my favourite paintings. He knew how much I hated the mirror these days. I looked like...

The Other Women                I couldn’t help notice that beautiful salwar. She was wearing the same salwar which I had tried on  when we went shopping the other day.  It was awfully ill-fitting for me but it seemed ideal on her. She came out of the Gynecologist’s room along with a man. He held her hands and they were both blushing. “Oh my” I whispered this and quickly covered my face with one of the magazine lying in waiting area.  It was him. Not just any random man. It was Vishal.  He was the reason why I came to the hospital today.                     Who is that lady I asked myself. My heart raced. I felt a lump in my throat. I called to his phone. I couldn’t hear it ring even though I was sitting just across the room.  I noted him taking it out and placing it back inside the pocket. I rang to his phone ag...

   With love- Jasmine I stretched my petals as far as I could.I just realised that it's not dark around me anymore. My petals were no longer glued together and I can finally see the world. I never knew the world around me was so beautiful. Mother plant had given birth to another jasmine  flower who looked exactly like me. As we both started talking the morning dew fell on my nose. We danced from side to side as the cool breeze stroked us . I noticed that there were many other flowers like us in the garden and many other mother plants as well. Just then I heard a jasmine screaming out loud.                       I saw a lady standing near me detaching that jasmine from it's mother plant. Mother plant looked very sad. I was so angry that I wanted to punch that lady. Before i could do anything to her she pinched my neck hard. It was so hard that I couldn't breathe. She detached me also from my mother pla...

                              The letter that changed my life.             I closed my eyes even though I had turned the lights off. The night was dark but even the small beam of light sprouting from my neighbour’s room into mine made me feel agitated. I tried not to think too much but closed eyes made it worse. The more I thought about it, the more rapid my heart raced. Just then I could hear voices of gossip. The words were crispy clear although they should be whispering.    "He might have physically abused her,” said a female voice. “It's him I tell you it's all because of him” said another voice!  “Why else do you think he has shut himself inside that room. He can't face us..." "Maybe she had an extra marital affair and he caught her red handed,” said another enthusiastic voice.   I closed the window in my room but t...

Dear diary , Today I was overfed by mother human! As a token of love I decided to puke on their white carpet. She shouted something in their language . Their language is so confusing I tell you ! Our feline meows and purrs rock ! Later through the day some human kids showed up at my house. One boy human decided to pull my tail. I thought I should also let him know who he is messing with! I just touched his rosy cheeks with my paw ! The very next second he  started crying like as though I  snatched his share of fish away! Didn't know the kids of these species  are such fragile dumb heads ! You touch them and they cry! But when they pull your tail they expect us to still say meow and cuddle with them! I hid under the bed till the human kids left! Ps: did I tell you I sharpened my nails earlier today ?! Love Nunu the cat This photo was taken by the girl human  when I was asleep ! I hate it when  she  posts my pics publicly without my consent ! ...

The disturbed heart ( Point of view of a cheater/betrayer)  On a roller coaster takes me this guilt, Disturbed sleep and longest nights , Dreams no longer I see , Shutting  my eyes to sleep, Your face is all I can see . I wish to see you again , Just to say I'm terribly sorry . Though no sorry can mask the scars, Just to say I wronged you the most . Though it won't heal the heart, Want to fall to your feet and cry Another act is what you'll think Ever will I surpass this grief  A lonely path I threw you in  You Drowned those days in tears I know , Your kind heart won't curse me I know , But suffering Iam but for every tear you shed , Karma followed me and in pain Iam Please forgive me I beg so  I lied and betrayed you  I stamped over your dreams  I laughed when you  cried With a devil's mind and a lying soul Wore I a mask of a lamb  Inside an evil wolf was I  This truth could not be hidden for long  And...